A couple of weeks ago, we had an event at work, and at 7 months pregnant, I saw several people that I haven’t seen in…oh about 6 or 7 months. This made me want to write a post explaining a little something about myself.
For those who didn’t already know, I’m not a “scream it from the rooftop” type of person. I’m can be very quiet and reserved and even shy at times (I know, this is shocking to some). Don’t get me wrong, I was very excited to tell close friends and family we were expecting (and engaged when that happened), but I didn’t feel the need to blast Facebook (just the opposite with the baby news), rent a billboard or anything like that. I don’t Ohh and Ahh at showers, parties, and the like, and I, like most of my family, don’t get very outwardly excited ever. Yes, that means it takes a lot of energy for me to do parts of my job, but it does not mean that my gushing thanks is any less sincere, on the contrary, because it is such a stretch for me to be so enthusiastic.
I wish my co-workers from the spring of 2007 could tell you about how they found out we were engaged. Let me preface it with, there were 3 people in our building, so we were relatively close for the 3 months I’d been there and I might have been the most extroverted one- and I’m definitely an introvert. So, we got engaged over the weekend. I went to work on Monday with my new, shiny ring on and went about my day. Hours later one of our regular clients came in, noticed it, and inquired. When he left, I remember turning around and Craig was just staring at me and Vanessa had her hands on her hips. They were surprised I didn’t tell them first thing, and Vanessa said I should have walked in the door with my left hand on my forehead to tell the world. I told her that just wasn’t me or my style.
Some may say “but you had a big wedding, doesn’t that mean you sort of are a more ‘scream it from the rooftop’ type?”. I did, but that wedding was Adam’s, not mine. Don’t get me wrong, I wanted the big dress and I picked the flowers that I really wanted, but, having a wedding like that was what Adam wanted, not what I wanted. (And yes I am awesome for planning that wedding for Adam and yes he knows it!)
I’m not sure where I’m going with all this except to say, writing is easy for me, but topics and putting it out there is hard. I get easily overwhelmed with lots of attention and I’m generally a very level person (I’d like to think I’ve had only few exceptions to that, even during pregnancy, so far) and it takes a lot for people who do get outwardly excited to perceive me as excited, because I don’t show it like they do.
Now, don’t take any of this the wrong way, both Adam and I are super excited about our baby, but you may think he’s more excited (and maybe he is, I’m nervous about it too, and a little overwhelmed with the holidays- but, I’m also a realist, that’s another post) because of his behavior as compared to mine. Really, we just have different personalities and different ways of feeling and showing emotions. Neither of us does it the right or wrong way, just different ways.